feelin never fades

it's hard to let go of certain emotions cuz the feeling neva seem to leave u the memories still linger on your mind when u around someone else u start thinkin bout the times dat made u smile or even the times that made u frown it's hard to let go of sumthn datz good then u left standing like your world crash and your mind stuck in a trance wit no understanding the emotions i must try to shield away how will i be able 2 do diz? at sum point we must leave our past in the wind but it's easy to say bt it's hard to let actions take place what i feel for u will stay close even if i'm no longer able to have u in dat way. i say we why we must go diz cycle of lettin go. i wuld miss kissing u slow all over or the way i make your body flow. we fight the emotions that ties us 2getha. but the word letting go iz hard pass from our lips. u enter like an angel in my eyes. i look to the sky for the answer but the clouds remain to turn gray. i feel trap behind this wall that surrounds my heart bt ur my heart only has room for one. i struggle and as more time passes by the feeling never fades

darkness

Darkness all around. i dnt kno my left from my right. so i can run away. my only option is to face it.

Clouds

Clear skies not a cloudy in sight.
Taking it one day at a time, givin it all my might.
Dark clouds come and go, it may even rain.
My heart gets heavy and i'm reminded of the pain (<---Like i need a reminder)
Then the sky clears agian and the sun shines
Its brings me joy and peace of mind

Sun Oct,18,2009 9:30pm

i know sometimes it feels it feels like your world is closing in on you. Ppl abusing and comin down on you.; tlkn behind your back; Betrayal. Bills need payn. you and da baby need clothes; All kinds of money problems; Relationship problems. But i come to tell you happines is on da way. Maybe there goals you want to acclomplish. I kno its at least one thing you enjoy doin and it put a smile on your heart. I personally was always had personal,kind of, hidden goal. i did'nt want ppl to kno because i didnt want them to see me fail. bt i kno i have great potential inside of me and so do you. I see myself in the future as a strng minded woman helping others out of troubled times. My suggestions to others having a hard time findin joy is to close your eyes, humble yourself and PRAY. You'll be amazed at hw He open your eyes and heart. give your troubles to Him and take life one day at a time. you'll realize that there's joy inside you. All this time you may have been waiting or expecting other ppl to bring you happiness and they most likely failed in doin so. Bt have faith! Joy is inside of you and that joy comes frm The Lord. To all-- stay strong the battle is worth the scares. You can win and defeat the odds