WUR I STAND

RIGHT NOW I DONT KNOW WUR I STAND IN MY BABY'S LIFE. I FEEL LIKE IM NUMBER NOTHING IN HA LIFE. I FEEL LIKE SHE DONT REALLY UNDERSTAND HOW I MISS HER WEN WE DNT TALK. AND LAS NIGHT I WAS SO MAD WEN I FOUND OUT SHE DIDNT CAL ME BAC BCUZ SHE WAS ON DA PHONE WIT FRIENDZ ?! I MEAN, WAT THA FUCK!!!!!!!! DAT REALLY MADE ME FEEL GLORIOUS. IT REALLY DID. I WAS ALREADY FEELIN BAD CUZ I THOUGHT HA MOTHER HAD COME HOME. I WAS THINKN TA MYSELF " I HOW DNT KNO HOW MUCH OF THIS I CULD ENDURE" AND I STILL DNT KNO. AFTER WE GOT OFF DA PHONE THE LAS TIME I WAS SO FURIOUS, I HAD TA DO SUMN I HAVENT DONT IN A LONG TIME........TAKE A WALK. I STAYD OUT UNTIL 11:30. I HAD TA DO SUMN TO GT MY MIND OFF ALL THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS I WAS THINKN. AND WEN I GOT HOME I STILL HAD PROBLEMS SLEEPN AND HAD TO REPEAT "ITS GONBE ALRITE-ITS GONB ALRIGHT " OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN MY HEAD TA FALL ASLEEP. ONLY TA WAKE UP AND IT BEIN DA FIRST THING ON MY MIND. I LUV MY BABY WIT ALL MY HEART AND SOUL, SHE IS MY LIFE. I WOULD DIE FA HA BUT ITS PAINFUL AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL TO NOT KNO WUR I STAND IN HA LIFE.