Y CANT I GO?

even tho i go out from time ta time. i wish i could go out with my baby. i hate stayin home and bein lonely day after day, weekend after weekend. i get so tired of goin out wit those nothin ass friends of mines. i wish i could take my baby out at least once a month. but in reality i only take her out maybe once every four ta six months. that 2 - 4 times a year. i miss her so much and it hurts so bad. but i really can't complain bcuz its not her fault. i kno if it was up ta her we would be out everyday. . i know trouble don't last always but DAMN......! i need a blunt. but i can't smoke so imma go to sleep. but i still wanna kno y can't i go?